Thursday, April 30, 2009

How Much Longer....

Until the pain of not having your here - doesn't take my breath away...

Until my daddy doesn't cry almost non stop from missing you...

Until I quit going to the phone to call you - only upon dialing realize you won't answer...

Until seeing something I know you would like - but can't share with you, hearing something I know you would think funny & hear you laugh, smelling something that brings back a memory of a time we shared....

Until seeing "Mother's Day Gifts" in the store won't remind me that I can't get you a gift this year...

Until walking into my "childhood home" & not feeling gut punched because you aren't sitting there in your favorite chair...

Until I no longer feel like I have to be the "strong & encouraging one" for those around me - because I know it is what you would want me to be...

Until I don't cry myself to sleep anymore ...

Until I don't feel like I have to go to the gravesite every Saturday & stand by your grave & cry out for you my precious MOMMA...

How much longer ... How much longer.... How much longer.... UNTIL THIS PAIN GOES AWAY..


3 comments:

Ruggy13 said...

I know it's hard right now but sometimes, for me, it helped realizing that the reason I was feeling so much pain was because of how lucky I was to have cared that much about someone. I hope things get easier for you soon! It's ok to cry!

Sending hugs your way

Kyla said...

I love you!

The Hickmans said...

Oh Teressa! I am praying for you, girl. God is our strength, comfort, rock.... just go to Him. Not that the pain won't still be there, but maybe eased a little. My Word on Wednesday posts are back- I'm so excited about sharing God's Word on my blog again.